Emo Holiday

[memento1]

I don't want to ruin anyone's holiday. Really I don't. So don't read if you're having a good day ;)

So, the 4th of July has always been a wonderful holiday for me. Right behind Christmas in terms of how much I look forward to it and enjoy it. Up until last year I spent almost every one at home - there was always a parade in the morning, pool party all day at a neighbors, and fireworks at night. One year I spent the 4th at Wolf Park, and after work we all went out to watch fireworks together, laughing and playing games and enjoying each others' company. I have a lot of wonderful memories of this day.

This year, like last, I had to work all day. I asked around to see what people were doing for the 4th, and most people were either skipping the festivities or had other things planned that I wasn't invited to. I couldn't find anyone to go watch fireworks with. I contemplated going by myself, but after a long, tiring day at work I decided to just stay at home and read. About an hour ago I heard some deep rumbling, and when I put two and two together and realized it was distant fireworks, I started crying. I wished intensely that I had gone to view them, even if I did have to sit by myself, surrounded by couples and families and friends, instead of sitting here feeling so lonely I could cry.

Normally I don't feel that lonely - I have company at work, plenty to do when I get home. Tomorrow I'll be back to normal, with a normal, regular day and normal, everyday activities to keep me occupied. But today, this holiday, I really truly miss having companionship.

As said, I hate being a downer, and I really hope you all had a wonderful day. I'm going to go pop in "Independance Day" and try to cheer up. :) *hugs*!

Comments

[balmyone.livejournal.com]

Aww I'm sorry! *hugs* I'm not busy tonight, so you can call me if you want to talk to someone. :)

[ranee42.livejournal.com]

oh honey... I know that feeling. It reminds me of when I was alone in a hotel room in Delhi last Christmas.. I can handle being alone most of the time, but there's something about your favorite holiday that makes you ache so much more. I'm so sorry you're feeling that way, and I wish you could have come watched fireworks with me! *hugs you*
oh, and I called you today! I guess I called while you were at work, because I thought you might have the day off. Mostly I was just saying how amazing you were to send me that poster AAAAAAAHHHH, you = win! But you're awesome anyway, and I hope you feel better tomorrow!
love, love, love!

[memento1.livejournal.com]

OMG RANI I GOT YOUR VOICEMAIL AND IT WAS AWESOME!!! I'm so sad I missed it but yeah, I was at work. I'm so glad you got the poster! balmyone actually was the one that somehow got away with 2, and offered up that one to a good cause. ;) Sorry I couldn't get one with DD's signature for you. They were so stingy with them!

And thank yooooooou, you always make me feel better. I was fine and dandy the next day (in fact, had a great day), so it is just a holiday thing, but it makes me feel so much better that you know what I'm talking about :) *HUGS*

[naushika.livejournal.com]

*snugs* I was the same way this year. I always go to a parade and fireworks with my family, and this is the first July 4th in.. years that I did nothing. At all. (I also worked all day/night!) It was sad.

But cheer up! Next year you'll make up for it, right? I'm planning to! :D

[memento1.livejournal.com]

Awwww. Yeah, work sucks when you have to work holidays. Hopefully we'll both have a better time next year!

[stiffleaves.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

*holds you tight*

[kira-iras.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. Nobody should have to feel like this on a special day, but I suppose many more do and we just don't know about it. *hugs*

[memento1.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Yeah, I know holidays are hard for a lot of people. At least I know I'm not alone!

[txduck.livejournal.com]

*HUGS*

[lunayoshi.livejournal.com]

Aww, I'm sorry. If it makes you feel any better, if I'd gone anywhere this year, I would have asked you to join me. :(

[memento1.livejournal.com]

Awwww, thanks. I'm starting to realize not a lot of people did much of anything this year. I guess it's a bigger holiday for me than for most people ;)

[tenacious-err.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you had to feel emo on the 4th. ♥ I hope you're feeling better now.

[dictatorcari]

Awww, man, I'm sorry. But I totally know how you feel. :/

SG-1 LIMS Reminder

[hsapiens.livejournal.com]

Just a quick note to remind you that the deadline for entering an icon in Challenge 11 at sg1_lims is just under 24 hours away. According to my records, you haven't yet entered. :)

[lunayoshi.livejournal.com]

Hey! Want to set up a day for us to do our Grand X-Files Marathon? If you wanna do it on a Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday, I could come over (or you could come here, I guess we could arrange that, too) after work.

Whattayasay? FUN will ensue! :)

[memento1.livejournal.com]

I SO WANNA DO A MARATHON!

Only those days are bad for me since they've changed my days off now to Thursday and Friday, BAH. And I work until 6 every day now. If you want to do a short after-work marathon M-W that's fine with me though. ;) This movie is coming out too soon and BIG SPOILERS are leaking (which I am desperately trying to avoid) and I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALMOST HERE!!!

Boo for opposite days off. I'm totally up for an after-work marathon though. Any day, any place. Lemme know ;)