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Emo Holiday
I don't want to ruin anyone's holiday. Really I don't. So don't read if you're having a good day ;)
So, the 4th of July has always been a wonderful holiday for me. Right behind Christmas in terms of how much I look forward to it and enjoy it. Up until last year I spent almost every one at home - there was always a parade in the morning, pool party all day at a neighbors, and fireworks at night. One year I spent the 4th at Wolf Park, and after work we all went out to watch fireworks together, laughing and playing games and enjoying each others' company. I have a lot of wonderful memories of this day.
This year, like last, I had to work all day. I asked around to see what people were doing for the 4th, and most people were either skipping the festivities or had other things planned that I wasn't invited to. I couldn't find anyone to go watch fireworks with. I contemplated going by myself, but after a long, tiring day at work I decided to just stay at home and read. About an hour ago I heard some deep rumbling, and when I put two and two together and realized it was distant fireworks, I started crying. I wished intensely that I had gone to view them, even if I did have to sit by myself, surrounded by couples and families and friends, instead of sitting here feeling so lonely I could cry.
Normally I don't feel that lonely - I have company at work, plenty to do when I get home. Tomorrow I'll be back to normal, with a normal, regular day and normal, everyday activities to keep me occupied. But today, this holiday, I really truly miss having companionship.
As said, I hate being a downer, and I really hope you all had a wonderful day. I'm going to go pop in "Independance Day" and try to cheer up. :) *hugs*!
So, the 4th of July has always been a wonderful holiday for me. Right behind Christmas in terms of how much I look forward to it and enjoy it. Up until last year I spent almost every one at home - there was always a parade in the morning, pool party all day at a neighbors, and fireworks at night. One year I spent the 4th at Wolf Park, and after work we all went out to watch fireworks together, laughing and playing games and enjoying each others' company. I have a lot of wonderful memories of this day.
This year, like last, I had to work all day. I asked around to see what people were doing for the 4th, and most people were either skipping the festivities or had other things planned that I wasn't invited to. I couldn't find anyone to go watch fireworks with. I contemplated going by myself, but after a long, tiring day at work I decided to just stay at home and read. About an hour ago I heard some deep rumbling, and when I put two and two together and realized it was distant fireworks, I started crying. I wished intensely that I had gone to view them, even if I did have to sit by myself, surrounded by couples and families and friends, instead of sitting here feeling so lonely I could cry.
Normally I don't feel that lonely - I have company at work, plenty to do when I get home. Tomorrow I'll be back to normal, with a normal, regular day and normal, everyday activities to keep me occupied. But today, this holiday, I really truly miss having companionship.
As said, I hate being a downer, and I really hope you all had a wonderful day. I'm going to go pop in "Independance Day" and try to cheer up. :) *hugs*!